My inner self is relatively at peace, but my outer self is exhausted. The world keeps spinning and hurling through space, and somehow I'm not dead. Incredible. Why is it that as the years go by and I get older everything just seems to terrible? Existence has become quite annoying. Thankfully with the help of my new reality shifting elixir, I have a new way to shield myself against the horrors that swim around me. I really want to change the way I take in and translate information. I feel like I've grown up to become too cynical. Not because I'm bitter about my own life choices, but more because I keep comparing myself to what others find important, and that shouldn't be the case. I'd like to think of myself as someone who doesn't care about other peoples opinions, but like anyone else I'd like to be respected by my peers. I guess that feeling has to be shaken off because it hasn't done me any good. I think it's time for me to become my natural self for the world to see.
The past two years have been all but a misery. Well, maybe that's a bit dramatic, but it's not without it's hunk of truth. There were so many predicted doomsdays this year (as usual), and not a single one was correct. I don't want to say I'm disappointed, but, it'd be nice if any of those numerology idiots were correct about anything. I think it'd be fun to witness some sort of massive apocalyptic event.
Another thing that has me thinking this year are the artists I follow on Facebook and Twitter. The fact that I've been able to speak with people who really inspire me, and have inspired me for most of my life has been a life-shifting event for me. I think I want to switch gears and try my hands at the arts again. It's been over 15 years since I've tried to do anything seriously within the arts, but I think it's time to change that. I mean, the reason I even blog is because I needed an outlet for my thoughts and creativity (if you can even call this blog creative at all I'm not sure.)
So in general, if life is going to be so difficult and stupid, I may as well do whatever I like and see if I can finally fail upwards. I feel like I've been too focused on natural beauracracy, social contract, and social normative that I've been denying my true nature. It really is time to quest into the unknown.
SPLICIMALS BY BIG KID'S KARNIVAL
Etsy is the greatest place for buying the best and most unique items. For a long time I thought it was just for scarves and homemade jewelry, but when I found out you could buy toys, pins, and other fun things I went nuts with it.
This might be my favorite purchase ever though.
Big Kid's Karnival has tampered in God's domain and created adorable abominations for you to collect, The Splicimals!
There's not too much to say about these little guys. They're those plastic animal toys you might get in a dollar store just hacked to bits and glued back as strange new creatures. I'm a big fan of my new "Sharktopus" and "Stegantsaurus" figures. The little paper box they come in is also pretty great.
Without question or hesitation, I plan on buying more from Big Kid's Karnival. I really like the stuff they produce and customize. Really imaginative and have a fun. Really takes me back to an elementary school state of mind.
What a stellar add to my collection at the very end of the year. I'm kind of honored to have Splicimals for my shelf; they feel like something that should have always existed.
Well I guess that's all for now. If you regularly swing by this blog thanks for your time, and I hope you all have a fantastic new year! Maybe 2019 won't be a giant pile of shit! 😃